But when you start in the beginning and list all the mistakes, wrong decisions and odd things that happened, the toll of money lost, time spent and labor invested into this rabbitry, well, I think others less stubborn than I would have quit long ago. You can be a reasonably intelligent, well educated, well read person and still trip down the fairy path of personal fable, lol! One of the biggest being that every sweet bunny that wasn't show or brood quality would sell as a pet. Bwa-ha-ha. That is why there are, as of today, still 39 bunnies here, with only a small handful being worth breeding on. I have had successes- the blues took to the tables and did well, and so did a few others, but the time involved in selling pets, getting pets back because people lost interest, won't neuter, won't learn, etc., etc., watching politics at shows, buying stock that doesn't match up to the clever pictures taken, or just plain normal luck of importing animals that don't cross well, dead litters, peanuts, and not being able to get up off the floor of the Ark because my arthritis is getting.....well...let us just say I am moving like a 90 year old woman.... and the fact that I just don't think I am good at this- well it adds up.
I love the bunnies for themselves- most will stay here and hopefully be happy with the exercise areas that we will enlarge, the good food and treats and my company. Most have brought me great joy with their funny, endearing personalities. Some, like BlueBelle stay because in the end, the thing that makes me quit breeding is that I CANNOT TERMINALLY CULL just because a bunny is not worthy of the show table or breeding barn. And although I have shown horses and chickens, my self worth is not tied up in winning or even being successful at breeding good horses, chickens or rabbits - the most important thing in my life is to become who and what the Savior and Creator my my soul and very breath of my existence wants.
End of story.
If you are the praying type, pray that I can place about 10 more bunnies into wonderful, forever homes, so that I can avoid being on my knees except in prayer, lol! Or wish me luck. And thanks to everyone who honestly encouraged and supported me- it is appreciated. You have been the best part of it, next to the bunnies themselves!